#4: A Year Older

So. It was my birthday yesterday. A special day? It didn't feel like one. It was like every other day except for two things. People wishing me a happy birthday, which makes me feel good about the day, and then they ask me for a treat. For what? Having been born? Having grown a year more? Having come closer to losing all my hair? Reason to celebrate?

While it feels special, being a year older brings into sharper focus about what all I have not achieved yet. Brought into even sharper relief are the losses that I never gave a thought about at the time, when it seemed so easy to let go, but now feels like a part of me that can never be replaced. and then there is the feeling that I haven't done enough to leave a mark, to have realized and fulfilled my purpose. And when I think about it, I feel like a child staring at the sky, full of wonder at what's out there, hoping it's all good, fearing it'll be bad. (I guess it's normal nowadays to have multiple views on anything. Our way of life has led us all to develop dissociated identities. One for work, one for home. One for family, one for friends.)

All this might seem like I don't appreciate the effort everyone puts into making me feel special on my birthday. The truth is far from it. I'm very touched by all that. It's just that birthdays aren't as special to me as they were before.

Still, no one's going to punish me for singing 'Happy Birthday to me'. :)

#3: Better late than never. :)

So. It's been two years, six months and ten days since my last post, which is kind of a bummer because I had envisioned this blog to be regularly updated with different posts on different things about different aspects of life. Unfortunately, I had to take time off to deal with issues closer to home and come to terms with the way life changes. These nine hundred and twenty-three days have given me a great deal to think about, to learn and has changed me in ways I could not have thought were ever possible and I have come to realize that only one thing remains constant. Change. Ironic, isn't it?

So now I hope that this time, change is for good, and as far as Glasscracks is concerned, that would mean that this blog is regularly updated. Let's hope that this time, things work out as I first imagined it to be.

And by the way, a doctor will be contributing to the posts here from now on. :D

Cheers until later.

RH